my fascination for edie sedgwick grows with every passing day. i continue to learn more about her and become more entranced, confused, bewildered and ultimately saddened by her story. i was out for coffee with my dear friend linnea yesterday. i told her she had a qualities just like edie's: long legs, skinny, with a fashion sense, big beautiful eyes and a pretty face. linnea is reading this and cringing at all the compliments i just gave her. suck it up linnea, because you deserve EVERY one. it was marvelous to catch up with her yesterday, even if only for an hour. we are those two people who can fill up a time together, after months of not seeing eachother, and its like not a moment has passed.

well, i had said that my biographic blog post was coming, and as i lay here in Edina at my aunts house, im feeling that the time has come.

okay, well rewinding for awhile...i just want to re-emphasize what an amazing year this has been for me. filled with new friends, fashion, moves, recording studios, and more fabulous opportunities than an 18 year old from Minnesota should be entitled to. my singer actor class in the cities has given me more connections than i can even comprehend sometimes. i went to a play last night and knew over half the cast, just because i've performed with them at one time or another, or i had met them. so interesting. prelude got me into a recording studio this year, which still feels surreal to me. i got accepted into my top choice school, and they gave me lots of money. that being said, money is still a major concern for me, as my shopping habits will have to be greatly decreased and i will have to grow up and stop living in my fantasy land. but my excitement and readiness to leave this place is so great, that nothing else surpasses it. drake is the perfect fit and the experiences that await me there, i cant even begin to explain.

these past months have been filled with coffee, shopping, fashion shows, models, singers, dancers, actors and a workshop at the minnesota opera. i died when i got invited to do that. i feel like im in a dream most of the time. still waiting for someone to pinch me and tell me that all of this isnt happening. im also beginning to reach a point where i'm comfortable with myself again. after having mom take off with the kids for san antonio and having to move in with dad, i felt a feeling of upheaval (which is not foreign for me at all, but a feeling that had been repressed for awhile. i had to adapt to another house, another set of rules, another set of ideas. we are all starting to get used to each other and the way we live. i am trying to be less critical of myself and of those around me. i feel better than i have for a long time, so hopefully its working.

im sure i've forgotten something, but i will write again soon. uptown calls :]

thanks for reading my scrambled thoughts loves.

xo:mwah. kyle