pain throws your heart to the ground, love turns the whole thing around...

"i think its always good to get outside of your surroundings. i always hate when people take themselves to seriously, dont you?" - sienna miller as edie sedgwick in FACTORY GIRL

this is the staggeringly beautiful 60s socialite/model/superstar EDIE SEDGWICK. since i discovered her this summer through a preview for the movie "factory girl" starring sienna miller, i have become infatuated. bought books, movies, and magazines about her. OCD much? she has influenced the change in my fashion sense, even being a boy...by just making me realize how glamorous a SIMPLE look can be. although i will admit to adding a little flourish with a scarf here or there, a simple outfit (tight jeans, a big shirt, cardigan or sweater, and small non-attention grabbing shoes) goes a long way. i wore big sunglasses before i knew about her, but it thrilled me to know that i had similar tastes that she did (just naturally, without aspiring to be like her). i did my own little version of her as a halloween costume this year, its on facebook if you care to creep. i had one of those moments with my family today, where i feel like they finally saw things through my eyes for once, and actually spoke to me like i was an adult. it was refreshing and wonderful. it just made this already wonderful day even better.

well, this week has been a rollercoaster. thanksgiving break has finally arrived, and i have been thrilled and honored to have absolutely NO HOMEWORK all week! especially since the play opened, i guess i expected this week would just suck. i was so overjoyed to find that it was on the contrary. i thought i would just share with you, some of the emotional highs and lows of the week, as well as what i plan to do over break.

let me just begin by saying, the play this year is the best i've ever worked on while attending new prague. the amount of positive feedback from people in town and people visiting has just been so wonderful. you feed so much off the audience as an actor, and its just so wonderful to be having great audiences, even if their small. the parties, fantastic as usual. the experience as a whole has just been a wonderful one to end a high school career with. and i am enthralled to see what this next weekend has in store. tomorrow is thanksgiving, and to in attempt to escape from loud children and a carride, i will be spending it with my dad and his girlfriend in montgomery. i assume we will have a small (very adult, hahah) thanksgiving with music playing, and a football game on against my wishes. it will be a nice, chill day before my unbeleivably hectic weekend commences.

BLACK FRIDAY. i will sooo be there being one of those crabby bitches you dont want to mess with, because they see a sweater that they will die before letting go of. i love the sales and just the feeling of shopping on that day. everything is high energy and exciting, and you can just feel it when you get into the mall. i'm going with jamie and elle for most of the day. then they will come meet my crazy family, and come downtown for the holidazzle parade with us. we'll sip on hot caribou (FAVORITE part :] ) and watch the lighted floats come by. then, we will go back and have a delicious spaghetti dinner. sounds like an amazing day! saturday i will be going out for coffee with abby, soriya, and jed (who are awesome to hang out with, we just tend to have that kick-ass group dynamic, if you know what i mean). following that we will be having a group movie watching of breakfast at tiffanys (one of my faves, that they have NEVER seen before). 6 o'clock call, for a 7:30 curtain. i just have a really good feeling about the crowd we're gonna have saturday night. SOOOOOOOOOOOO excited.

sunday will be my last musical show performance at the high school. lets just say its gonna be an emotional day... :)

hope that all of you have a wonderful thanksgiving and are with the people you love. theres nothing better than that. missing all of you that are far away. my coffee addiction continues so if any of you are home and have time, give me a jingle. i will somehow sqeeze in time.

love you all. xo*mwah: kyle.


ps....listening to continuum by john mayer. makes blogging so easy. i LOVE him (and want his new cd)

love this girl.

i highly recommend this cd to anyone who loves a kinda "coffee shop"/"road trip" singer, if you know what i mean. she is fantastic...and i fell quickly in love with this cd.

ALBUM HIGHLIGHTS: love save the empty, blue suitcase, its okay (pony)

^just to name a few, in actuality....the whole album is just god :)

those moments in life...

bonjour mon amis.

i have officially decided that i will take up learning french once i get to college. since german crashed and burned SOOO epically, i am a bit nervous to take up a different, harder language. but i honestly think my love, ALONE, for how beautiful the language is will get me through it.

it was one of those weeks, that at the beginning, i didnt think that this day could ever come fast enough. and yet here we are, opening night, and my last one that i will ever have at this high school. i know i mentioned this previously in other blogs, but i had a thought the other day. i have spent most of my teenage life, wondering why i never ran off to an art school like all of my friends did. i can say what i always did, that "theres a time for college, and a time for high school", which i do beleive still, but i have always had some lingering "what if" emotions on that topic. now i will get back to the point :P: when i was about 6, in the 1st grade, our classes were taken over to the NEW high school (this was 1998) to see the first play i would ever see performed by anyone in new prague. i had seen a few plays before (lion king, and some with mom when we lived in the cities) but this was "the wizard of oz", an old childhood favorite of mine. i was that kid in the front row. edge of his seat, bouncing up and down when the lights faded and the curtain opened. this began my love for theater, and is a moment in my life that it would be hard for me to ever forget. i was thinking yesterday, how i really owe my love for the arts to this town and the programs we have, as much as i hate to admit it sometimes. i think thats the real reason ive stuck around all this time. i waited most of my young life to get to the high school, so i could be in the plays, like those people i look up to so much (sidebar: lisa bark is my friend on facebook now, and i remind her quite constantly that she is my inspiration :P, she was dorothy in that show. now an actress :D) the fact that i can now be one of those high school kids, who has made the day of some 1st or 4th grader, has made the whole experience worth it for me. i want to do for some little kid, what those people, and this town did for me.

so its a bittersweet day, but one that i have been waiting for for a long time. all this being said, i am really ready for that next chapter in my life. college is going to be such a wonderful experience, and i cant even wait to see whats in store. the amazing people. the atmosphere. my MACBOOK. hahah, everything. its so exciting.

and i guess all in all, i have to say that if i had run off and gone to an art school, or lived somewhere else....i may not have this UNDYING love for theater and the arts that i have right now. its now the time to take it to the next level, and see what happens next.

XO*mwah: kyle

my next impulse purchase.

hello gorgeous(es).

i pass this item every time im at urban and feel that with my growing coffee addiction, it should be the next thing i buy when im in that store. :)
well, this week has been one filled with unbeleivable highs and lows. the play opens this weekend, so there is an excited and nervous air. i found a $20 bill on the ground this week, which has only happened to me twice in my whole life. i also got accepted at the college that was going to be the most difficult of all my choices, AUGSBURG! now once i get the other letters i can start the next hard step in this process, picking one. everyone is very excited, especially my dad....who is carrying my acceptance letter around, reading it repetatively, and showing it to everyone. and then there is my mother, who i know is excited, but when i told her.....responded as so: "oh thats nice." haha

i have had alot of thoughts about this opening weekend. i get to head some of the pre-play activities like shabooya, the music, and the speech and "pinky circle" (anybody reading this who didnt attend my high school must think we're going through some voodoo ritual or something, trust me, we're pretty normal). this week has been one of those where you just realize how fast life is going by. i had the thought, that this friday will be 12 years from the day that i first stepped foot into that auditorium (which i've been performing in for 4 years). that was the day i decided that i was going to be an actor. i was 6. and in the first grade. needless to say, this weekend is going to be very emotional.

i cant beleive i got accepted to a college. i thought id end up living in a box somewhere. definitely a releiving factor :)

xo*mwah: kyle

a failed diary attempt....

i have noticed, not only through the many facebook comments i have received (linnea AND annie :P), but through my own thought process as well, that attempting to get on here and write has been about as easy for me as writing a diary ever was. i was never good at sitting down and writing everything i was thinking about. but i should attempt to do better, and once i get a computer and head off to school, it will be MUCH easier than it is now.

speaking of which, my dad and i had an interesting discussion in the car today about my future laptop. he's trying to sell me on a pc (and i am a mac boy, if you didn't know) and it is failing miserably. he is trying to tell me that its less expensive and blah blah blah. internally throughout the whole conversation i was like: "if you don't agree with me, i'm just gonna take my grad money and buy it with that like everyone else does." as spoiled as that sounds, i refuse to take a pc to college with me.

we went to drake this weekend and saw the show "cabaret". drake continues to be in my top two schools (augsburg is the other), that i know i am going to have a really difficult time choosing between. do i want to give up the city, and all the indie theaters and theater exposure that i would be required to be immersed in as an ausburg student, or do i want the strenuous, professional (MANY optioned) training i would receive in des moines?

^all rhetorical, don't feel the need to answer.

the play opens this weekend, which means tech week commences tomorrow. joy.

come see me. i would love it :)

this was extremely bipolar, i apologize. im tired and am retiring to my bedroom now.

much love. and ps, i looked on my twitter recently and had forgotten how witty i was when i used that. it was amusing. not amusing after waking up with 32 twitter texts from john mayer. sooo not worth using after all that scrolling and deleting.

xo*mwah: kyle